myspace owns...and so does my life =)

 LEMONADE.
he's my sunshine in the rain.
my tylenol when in pain, yeah.
lemme tell you what he means to me.
like a tall glass of lemonade,
when it's burning hot on summer days.
he's exactly what i need.

he's soothing like the ocean rushing on he sand.
[sometimes i stop to close my eyes.]
he's my smile when im feeling blue.

my goodnight sleep when the day is through.

lemme tell you what he means to me.

[it's kinda like this] kinda like the feeling after your first kiss, [cept that everyday he makes me feel like this.]
he's exactly what i need.

hey guyys. yeah, haha. i haven't updated since like November 11th.

my baad.

lol. mysapce is just so much better.=) haha.

a lot of shit has happended since i last updated...

-i'm over him

-i like someone else

-falling never felt so safe and cool

basically...

some cool people have changed my life.

and im so very happy. yyyyeahhhh!

I really wish i knew what to do...

but i don't

i wish you were here with me...

but you're not

i wish you could be here to talk to me, hold me, and tell me everything's gonna be ok...

but you're not

I miss you more than you know...and if only you knew...but i guess you really don't

where are you when i really need you...i really need to talk to you.

I want you to know...that i miss you.

i never knew i could feel this way about anyone.

you caught me off gaurd...and changed my life

if only you knew that...

i don't know how it turned out to be this way...

I miss you...

Love,

Charlene

the book we are pretty much done with in english, "tuesdays with morrie" is a book on life, and philosohpy. it tells u to detatch from certain feelings, all of them actually. but i can't do that. not n e more. not after what happened.

Things happen in life that u can control, and things happen in life that u cnt control. i thought i was able to control this one thing in my life, get it back, and be able tohave my life back, and have everything back to normal.

but it didnt. those words came out of the person's mouth and i knew everything cant be ok.

break down babe, break down, its ok, it really is.

no its not! i dont know what to do.

everything is taken away from me, from my grasph , and i cnt do n e thing about it. that one thign i thought i could make a decision that could make everything normal.

but it didnt. and now.....

i dont have the control, it's been taken away, and there's nothing i could do about it.